it isn't patience; it's cowardice

i wish i could be straightforward about how i feel towards certain people.... unfortunately, i always find some way to circumvent the awkwardness that precedes all moments of clarity. so instead of putting it all out on the table, i ignore it and hope things play out the way i want. one day i'm going to shoot myself in the foot, and then i'll be sorry that i did not do more to facilitate the desired outcome.