i feel old.

i am 25. the gravity of my age is finally beginning to hit me. it is like a punch to the gut - sharp, unexpected, and alarming. where did the time go? am i squandering my youth? have i already squandered my youth? i feel so far behind my peers - while they are advancing in their careers, getting married, having babies... i remain static. i am the same person i was 5 years ago. i am not an adult.


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showing off my lovely depotted eyeshadows:





depotting these eyeshadows was a long and tedious process. it involved five 3-eyeshadow trios that had to be flat ironed, exacto-knived, extracted, labeled, and magnetized. the ones with the uneven surfaces are the ones that cracked and had to be mashed back together with isopropyl. sadly, despite the great effort i put into assembling this palette, i will probably only use 3 of the 15 colors. ahh well, they're still pretty to look at!