dunno

i've been trying to post something for the last several days, but i haven't been able to accurately articulate what i'm feeling. life feels chaotic right now.... i've been extremely moody, irritable, and my patience levels have dipped to an all-time low. i feel like i need a breath of fresh air, a change of scenery... a break from people and school and brooding misgivings.

something doesn't feel quite right. i still feel detached; a stranger in my own body. i did something extremely uncharacteristic last week. it was a dumb thing to do, but the truly stupid thing is... i can't decide if i regret it or not. whether it's due to the situation not really being a big deal, or my tendency to not regret most things i've done (all things happen for a reason/it all works out in the end, etc. etc.), my muddled standpoint on this issue is still discomfiting. i need to find a way to divest myself of these (for lack of a better word) weird feelings.

notable dates in the near future:
11/30: last day of finals!
12/7: graduation (thank god!)
12/12-12/25: taiwan!
2/5-2/9: vegas!

pictures from this past weekend's trip to austin: