6 more days

i know some things ought not have deadlines, but i have become increasingly impatient waiting for results that are slow to (or may never) materialize. i am in a period of my life where i need to focus on identifying those inexhaustible key buttresses that can guide and support me through the next few years - and i figure, if these things do not emerge within a self-mandated time frame, they are probably not sustainable in the long run, anyway. and then i can resign peacefully knowing that at least i have exerted sufficient effort in trying to attain these goals.

i'm getting better at undercutting my obstinance - taking into consideration the opportunity costs of keeping to what's comfortable, or what is simply available, and even considering the effects of being blind-sided by flashy entities offering little more than glitzy exteriors and dubious promises of happiness.

it makes sense, and it doesn't. some things are inexplainable. it's realistic and disappointing, but may be for the best. perhaps at a different time.

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quote i like:

"She had a pretty gift for quotation, which is a serviceable substitute for wit."
- W. Somerset Maugham